A few moments ago, I got off the phone after having a very long conversation with one of my closest friends. We chatted about all the routine topics;work, family etc and I could not help notice just how happy she was, which was a pleasant change as she has been through quite a bit during the last 3 years, including loosing her husband who had been ill for many years. I am so happy that she is finally emerging from beneath that dark cloud where she has been for some time.
As we chatted, I found myself reflecting on my own life and wondered when it was that I had lost my joie de vivre. The reality hit me like a moving train that my hopes and dreams have faded and I have settled, something I never believed would happen to me. My mind began racing, thinking of all those wonderful plans and the stark reality that they will probably remain dreams, never to realised and quite frankly, it is not a good feeling. Is this all there is?