The week end was a bit underwhelming. Saturday was a lovely day, perfect for getting out and about but that did not happen.To compensate I prepared something special for our dinner and that managed to keep me busy for the latter part of the day. Due to the weather (which was absolutely terrible yesterday) and a few other factors, lunch has been postponed until next week, or whenever it suits everyone. I had been looking forward to it but the storm conditions made going out uncomfortable and rather dangerous at times, so we stayed home most of the day and I caught up on some reading .It is unbelievable that we had gale forced winds,violent thunderstorms and low temperatures here, while in Sydney they were taking it easy on the beaches, basking in the sun!I would like to think that this is the last winter I will endure here in Melbourne but I know it is not.
For several weeks now, I have felt rather down, restless and lost a lot of faith in people I once considered to be friends. Maybe I have stopped looking for the best in people and seen life how it really is, warts and all, without rose col0ured glasses?Whatever it is, I have been taking time out to reflect on my relationships with others and how they impact on my life and the lives of those around me.I think too often I have become a crutch for others. The one who is always there to listen to their problems, be supportive and help when I can but the bottom line is I have discovered is that it is seldom reciprocated and it has become tiresome. I am vivacious and happy by nature but lately I am beginning to resent being the “go to person”. I am removing myself from these situations and those affected will have to take responsibility for their actions and work out their own issues. I feel I need to nurture me a bit more 🙂